Soul Search - Peace vs happiness

There must be a conscious decision accepted in the life of each and everyone of us beings dwelling in transitory existence on this planet who soul search...

What is given soaring heights of impression, and used largely to convey an often outward show of depth is oft erroneously called philosophy.

Yet ask oneself how many hours have you soul searched, (if you haven't you wont understand my blog) in twisted mental concentration for that of a higher ideal? For that which affirms meaning unlimited to this narrow now, this moment of time you've grasped. This is your philosophy.

To each one who has attempted so, hours will yield to meanings, meanings one has always known. Yet meanings above all else deceive in nature... for that which states the profound as of now, as situations contort and present passions wither will once again seem void, yet still contain the same meaning.

Yet there are those meanings which to the individuals thus dedicated to them hold true they are held true to in ill situations and through a morass of passions, due to reinforced belief.

These I consider a core, the foundation upon which the tapestry of life is constructed and fashioned.

My life as of late has been awash with doubts and soul searings. Consequently to war against such one must command a firm structure trusted and sound. This I am attempting to do, to inspect and reaffirm the foundations upon which i stand. Hench the introspection and questioning of that held believed long by I, perhaps too long.

That of a meaning which is a structural foundation to life and supports much of that which we stand upon and base our daily interaction upon. Searching to state what I moment by moment live for, towards or am in conscious pursuit of. Do we adjudge happiness and joy as a satisfaction surpassing others, both in value and in effort expanded to attain?

Or do we adjudge it as others passing at will that we are privileged to experience yet must willingly part with as situations dictate.

Alas many have placed such immense value upon those(happiness and joy) that they view the fulfillment of their lives, the success of their ventures upon these. What myopia, those purblind individuals “living” for those moments where one is self gratified, often at the expense of another. These times as life will necessitate absent, having been equated disproportionately as an element which necessitated life will often results in these experiencing truly depressing depression. Self inflicted and developed by momentary pleasure being the rule of existence...

Yet we all must exist for reason and towards some higher meaning, our life has a mission a goal of sorts that we must seek towards its discovery. And once found and so experienced we will find a state of being that supersedes momentary happiness and joy.

I am presented with a process of thought... It is not express thus as fact, only thought. That of the sense of lasting satisfaction that supersedes the moment is most often trampled over by the very ones who claim to seek it. As a drunkard traipsing with a spent whore while the one he loves observes, palled is he by his drunkenness and momentary satisfaction... yet rude will be his awakening and depressing in all thought his morrow. Such I compare those who seek happiness and joy to the detriment of character. These have observed their goal, yet placed a goal of such limited capacity that it is readily reached and lost, a cycle of endless pursuit, gain, and loss, ever achieving yet never gaining that achieved...

Thus I feel there must be a conscious decision made in the life of each and every one of us beings dwelling in transitory existence on this planet who soul search. The cemented decision to chose that beyond our own desires, desires deceiving the souls search. The demands of the temporal happiness and joy. We ought to forsake those in light of that lasting, that of firm unshakable resolution, that of peace.

Peace of soul, peace of mind, peace of spirit.

That which circumstances cannot dictate, but are dictated by a higher order and calling... sense of purpose.

For purpose overrides the moment and is subservient to none in moral standing but to that of a higher purpose. Thereof dictate unto your life a purpose, one that dust and rust doth not possess power to corrupt, one where thieves break not into and steal, endeavor to lay up your treasures in heaven for where your treasures be, there be your heart also...

What is the conscious decision made in your life, for you dwell in a transitory existence on this planet and you soul search...